I think it’s inaccurate to say that I have lived. Like animals, insects and plants, I have existed, but I have never once lived. In the past, if you had asked me, I would have told you that life is the condition of having living cells. Cold and scientific, to be sure. Like a logical robot with some instinctual and emotional programming thrown in. Now, I’ll tell you that you haven’t lived until you’ve realized you were once part of the living dead. Indeed, for nineteen years of existence, I was a zombie.
Every creature is born into simple and pointless existence, but only humans have the potential to transcend it. Whether doing so is meaningful or meaningless is a point of contention. After all, don’t pointless things have a place, too, in this far-from perfect world?
“Remove everything pointless from an imperfect life, and it’d lose even its imperfection.”
In 2006, instead of living, I watched as others lived. I straddled the twilight between life and existence. I saw insignificance in homogeneity.
These are the kinds of ideas I had running through my head last year.
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Forest Fire, photographer unknown
Danae, by Floriana Barbu
January 12th, 2007 at 12:20 pm - Edit
There is always that odd New Year’s feel to deal with in January. Everyone’s insistently making resolutions, that they are no doubt going to break some time. It’s almost depressing, but then again…
Humans - or those convinced enough of potential and the tendencies of life - can rise above. They don’t have to mindlessly follow others into the shallow, trivial lives that weave around like aimless breezes.
And aren’t people so interesting to watch? It makes me want to write a book about a single human alone, the thought processes and the mental action played out in any situation…
Lovely pictures; the colours are vibrant and beautiful.
January 12th, 2007 at 12:35 pm - Edit
Sarai - Thanks for convincing me to update! It’s strange, but it takes a lot of effort on my part to write new entries at the moment. When I become able to write with ease, it’ll be my next step away from this trivial life.
January 12th, 2007 at 2:45 pm - Edit
You’re quite welcome. I know the feeling of not having anything to post that would remain on par with what I’ve posted before.
Writing often provides an escape from trivialities, because one and one only has the ability to prevent others from seeing it. The writing can be as deep and as real as possible, without a fear of what people will think. Others might stare if I suddenly began talking about philosophy, but writing and the entire possibilities therein enclosed are endless…
February 15th, 2007 at 6:53 pm - Edit
Hmm. Long time no post, I see.
A note: I should thank you for linking to MegaTokyo. It is now by far my favourite webcomic. Funny how that turns out; it has a very interesting undercurrent of thoughts and ideas. The crossover between fantasy and reality therein is intriguing.
Anyhow, just to make sure you’re alive.